Sunday, March 15, 2009
i am diagnosed with love bloggers<3
It's been almost 2 months that I have been with my current boyfriend. And I never really got the chance to express my feelings for him. I honestly don't know where to start or where to even begin. Before we even started or been called "boyfriend & girlfriend", we met through Rj Ramirez. I know at first its all FTW? "Didn't she talk to Rj before? & Now she's dating his cousin?" At first I was exactly like that, but now it doesn't bother me one little bit. So this thing started Christmas Eve. Rj calls me in the middle of the night to see if I was still awake and I was. Few hours later, Rj and I get into a fight and his cousin, Justinn ends up talking to me and we start having a fun conversation. After that, I called him to see if he was still awake and this was on Christmas Day? Anyways, we started to get to know each other a lot better. I still remember the questions he asked me, "What's your favorite color?", "What do you look for in a guy?", "How were your past relationships?" etc... I was surprised that when I asked if he had any other girlfriends he said that he hasn't been in a relationship all his high school life. Because he preferred to just hook up with girls. At that point, a lot of thing went into my head. But it bothered me at first. Anyways, we started talking even more and ended up going on during the christmas break to watch Twilight. Which was pretty darn cuute. But anyways, after that night... I got more and more feeling for him. He told me how he wanted to get a "wifey" for his New Years Resolution. Which I thought was pretty lame.
Things went really well until we stopped talking for a good 2 weeks. I really didn't know what happened that we stopped talking randomly. But whatever it didn't get to me. After 2 weeks, he called me and asked if I was still awake. Had some real talks about us and what was going on. I told him how i felt and wasn't uncomfortable telling him straight up, "I like you. I don't know why we stopped talking." Him and I were getting really close to whatever we talked about. That's what I liked about him, the fact that I can tell him anything without being embarrassed. I never told him how I really really felt and why I fell for him. Maybe because till this very day he's been making me smile. Making me not regret anything. He even asked me to marry him one day and have 3/4 kids. We would start talking about baby names and shit like that, which was pretty whack but it was still cute. He'd fall asleep on the phone with me and then i'd hang up and wait for him to call me back. Although me and Justinn do fight and end up breaking up for a good 15 minutes. He calls me back saying "Sorry." Even though I told him specifically to stop apologizing to situations where it was my fault to begin with.
Its only been 2 months but it feels like its been years that I have known my baby. I miss him and I love him sooo much. This relationship is something I look forward to keep going and making it last for a very very very long time. All I ever asked was a guy to call me his "Baby" and can make me smile. But I got more what I asked for and more. Thanks babe for being such a cutie pie, LOOOOOVE YOU =) This is insane and crazy, I'm falling head over heels for this faggot, but I loove the feeling. I don't care what anybody thinks about us, they can just go suck ass cause they just jealous cuz they can never get a love like this. I love my baby, yupp I love my booy. Seventeen/XVII will always be our number. Regardless to whatever happens, just remember that I love you sooo much. Bye blogspot <3