Sunday, February 15, 2009
you're so vien, i bet you think this song is about you...
Trust. What is trust? How are you able to find it? Trust is both and emotional and logical act. Emotionally, it is where you expose your vulnerabilities to people, but believing they will not take advantage of your openness. You are able to find that trust when you are most definite about giving that trust to someone who will for sure never take advantage of it.
Recently, Trust is becoming a major issue in my life right now. I've set my standards really high this time. The reason why I have to set my standards the way it is if girls weren't so catty and fake. I do admit, I've been that type of girl at some point in my life and sometimes I can be fake without even knowing it, but I was able to realize that and I do apologize if I made a statement of my own that felt hurtful to anyone. But have you ever heard of free will? I made whatever decisions I made cause I had every right to.
Now, I honestly don't understand why certain people or someone who I felt really close with recently, are becoming something that I thought they wouldn't even dare to act. If it's not your fucking business WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU GO TELL PEOPLE, EVEN THOUGH YOUR BEST FRIENDS WITH THEM SOMEONE ELSES' BUSINESS? It clearly doesn't mean you have every fucking right to tell them everything. It is honestly not your damn business about what me and my boyfriend does. It is unnecessary and disgusting why you would bring up such a thing to someone else who doesn't even give a fuck. I don't fucking care anymore, I can do anything I want. Who are you to judge me. This is honestly the reason why you do not have any friends. I have been sticking up for you for the past 3-4 months and all i get back is this bullshit I hear from people WHO YOU THINK ARE YOUR FRIENDS. Which makes me laugh even more! This is why Trust is such a big deal in forming friendships. And this is why I can't Trust you anymore. None of what you so call "friends" "dance crew" DON'T TRUST YOU ANYMORE CAUSE YOU HAVE A BIG MOUTH AND YOU'RE WHACK. I finally saw the reason for myself why so much people hate you. I'm sorry but there is nothing else I can do but to side with the fact that they were sooo right in the beginning. I cannot be around with someone whose like this. I am soooo sorry I ever doubted anyone about you. You really need to change that cause I am honestly done with your bullshit. Have fun making new friends and then end up fucking them over. It's really sad, I had so much respect for you, and now its completely changed my point of view.
This shit is over, find other people who are willing to deal with the same kind of your bullshit. I'm sooooo goooooone.